Nabeel Qureshi just released his 38th VLog recently where he spoke about the unbelievable pain he experienced when a wire mesh stint was inserted to assist him in getting nourishment. Actually it wasn’t the insertion that caused the pain but the movement of the stint when it became dislodged.
I have all 38 of Nabeel’s VLog links available at this link if you are looking for them.
Hundreds if not thousands of people have been praying for Nabeel’s healing of stage 4 stomach cancer that he first told us about back in August of 2016.
Seldom do I get through one of Nabeel’s VLogs without getting tears in my eyes because of what he is going through. About 12 years ago I was told that I had a 17% chance of being alive in five years when I was diagnosed with prostrate cancer. Key words being 12 years ago. The cancer was removed through surgery and I am cancer free. Thank you Lord.
I know the thoughts that go through one’s mind when news of this type is delivered. I remember the tears that I shed, not so much for me but more so for the loss of my loved one’s that I would miss. Nabeel’s VLogs share the same concerns about his wife and young daughter and his Mom and Dad. Nabeel’s parents are still Muslims, which adds additional emotions into the equation. Nabeel’s father was on one of Nabeel’s VLogs and you can see the love between the two of them.
In my mind, for God to heal Nabeel would be a no brainer because of the testimony it would be for Nabeel’s ministry to Muslims. The healing has not been manifested yet for Nabeel and the clock is ticking. Nabeel is an outstanding Evangelist of the Gospel, I could sit and listen to him for hours. Nabeel’s healing would serve so many Godly purposes. Please note this is my mind speaking. But Jesus, who has been given all power and authority in heaven and earth is sovereign and He hasn’t healed Nabeel yet and perhaps He won’t. So we wait and the clock is ticking.
I’ve spent a fair amount of time studying the scriptures with respect to how healing from God works and I don’t think it is as simple as some say it is. Does God still heal, yes He does. Does He heal everyone who calls on Him for healing today, not from what I can see.
But that’s not the issue that really bothers me, it’s the issue where my will for something, with my limited access to all the pertinent facts and end purposes that God has, comes into conflict with God’s will, expressed through His seemingly non-response. The silence from God really starts to test your faith. I know that we don’t know all the facts and what we do see is only a part of the picture and that one day, when we are with God we will understand and we will be satisfied. But today is where I am living and today I need to trust. Trusting silence is not easy.
Is God always silent, no He isn’t. I do actually hear Him speak to me on a very infrequent basis. I also feel His presence, guidance and His peace. And more than once He has shown me that when my limited ability to comprehend what has transpired, indicates to me that an objective has failed, He steps in at the very last minute and brings the objective to completion when I had all but given up. I love it when that happens.
I could list many many reasons why God should heal Nabeel. But He hasn’t yet. Maybe He will and maybe He won’t. If God heals Nabeel I will of course be ecstatic. If God doesn’t, I and many others will have to deal with that. Faith or trust is a strange thing, especially when it comes to our relationship with our Heavenly Father, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. It seems to me that God is always stretching our faith, testing our trust in Him, which ultimately leads to a deeper relationship with Him. We end up having two choices, either increasing the distance between ourselves and God or diminishing that distance. How do we increase the distance between ourselves and God when we have come to love and trust our Lord? We can’t. It’s not where I want to go and I’m sure it’s not where you want to go. Basically that is a stupid move. So we draw closer, we have to, we need to. There really is only one choice.
I’ve even thought that if God doesn’t heal Nabeel, maybe He is getting us ready for what is coming down the road. Deepening our relationship with Him because we are going to need it. That is a distinct possibility.
I remember that God’s ways are not our ways, His thoughts are not our thoughts and that ultimately we either trust Him or we don’t. I’m not always really keen over this lesson He teaches us but deep down I understand. We are the sheep and He is our shepherd. There’s a reason why things are the way they are. God is God and we are His creation. And most importantly, He tells us that all things work together for good for those that love God. That’s where the stretching of faith comes in.
So I’m going to do what King David did when his unnamed son from Bathsheba became sick, petition the Lord daily for Nabeel’s recovery. As long as Nabeel draws breath I will be praying for him. But if God in His wisdom decides to take Nabeel home, I will cease my prayers for Nabeel and carry on with my walk with our Lord.
Worthy is the Lamb! Blessings!