I started my WordPress blog back in March of 2008. New Age teachings were in the vogue and among others, Eckhart Tolle had caught my eye. From March of 2008 until March of 2016 I posted a total of 31 posts, that’s an average of 3.8 posts a year but if you look closely you will note that there are some years when I didn’t post anything. 2016 was a bit of a turning point for me or for lack of better words, a returning to the roots of my faith. It was also the timeframe when I stopped working full time and started my part time employment. I started reading the Bible more and of course you know what happens when you do that. Strangely enough the posts on my blog started to increase until I now average about 30 posts a month, compared to the 31 posts for almost 8 years.
It’s hard to believe the changes that have taken place within me. It’s hard to believe how precious the presence of the Lord has become important in my life and the necessity of heartfelt prayer. Of course when you start reading the Bible more you know what follows next, yep, spending more time in prayer is right around the corner.
I’ve written before how my journey got me to where I am today so I’m not going to repeat it but the lessons that I have learned within the last couple of years cause me to reflect on the time that I wasted and what could have been. Many of those years where the “touch and go years” where infrequency was the key method of operation. The short story is that as a general rule of thumb you only get back from the Lord what you are willing to give Him. Of course, there is always the grace of God working in the background and I’m sure we’ll never fully know exactly how He guided us along the sparse or “touch and go” years until we see Him face to face. Suffice to say that grace is a key element in my faith. Big time. The bumper stickers that used to be prevalent on cars, like the one that said: “Feel distant from God? Who moved?” kind of summarizes my “touch and go” phase.
I can liken the relationship between the Lord and myself to the relationship I tried to maintain with my wife. There is a “oneness” element that is in a marriage that needs to be maintained in order for the marriage to flourish. That means you need to be open to the things that completes your mate and you need to actually do those things which produce contentment in your mate. I strived to do that a lot of the time but there were also times when that fell to the wayside. When the latter happens, the relationship is harmed and nothing really good comes of it unless you count the new awareness you have of “what it is” and “what it should be’.
In hindsight, would I do things differently in my marriage if I had a chance to do it over again? Absolutely, it goes without saying. Likewise in my relationship with the Lord. But we don’t get that second chance option, what is done is done and we only have today and hopefully tomorrow.
My wife and I have been married now for 47 years, that’s hard to believe at times and yet, through God’s grace we are still together and love one another. My understanding of what love is has changed much over the years, also forgiveness and especially the reality and necessity of doing what you say.
The relationship between the Lord and myself has now coincidentally also been ongoing for approximately 47 years. Just like my marriage, there have been a significant number of ups and downs. But, once again, through God’s grace, He is still my saviour and my Lord. My understanding of what Jesus actually did as He walked this earth, doing the will of our Heavenly Father has also changed and the love that is expressed in the obedience of Jesus now means so much more than it previously did. The forgiveness God extends and the reality of following His commandments is also much more of a reality. Strange how if all unfolds isn’t it?
I also know beyond a shadow of a doubt that the strongest reality I cherish is love, everything else means literally nothing if love is not present, in my relationship with my Lord and in my relationship with my wife.
There is a reason why God says that a man and a woman will join themselves together and the two shall become one. There is a reason why when we ask Jesus to be our Lord that His Spirit actually begins to live in us, so that we also may become one. How clear it all now seems and yet how much of this truth I let slip by for so long. His truth never changes, just our ability to see and hear what has always been.
Worthy is the Lamb! Blessings!