I don’t know about you but it seems as though I find myself longing for more of God’s presence as of late, that special one on one that He infrequently allows me to glimpse. I finally finished reading the updated version of Dr. Hugh Ross’s book “The Creator and the Cosmos” and as always, I continue to be amazed at the wonder of God’s creation and all of the different pointers that He arranged so that we could know that indeed, He did this all for us, so that we could come to know Him and love Him.
Normally I love reading about that but that wasn’t what I was longing for, at least not the last few days. We’re been going through some very trying difficult days as of late with one of our daughters who demonstrates all the symptoms of having a narcissistic personality disorder and it seems that every time I turn on the news and see Donald Trump, I come face to face with the symptoms all over again. Trust me, it’s not lifting. I am oh so looking for a return to some resemblance of normalcy, even with it’s jaded edges.
If you’ve ever looked into narcissism, it’s like entering into another world where common logic seemingly goes out the window and literally everything is focused on the shell or bubble that the individual creates to sustain their perception of their reality. Trying to make sense of that and especially, dealing with the ramifications of that warped mentality is extremely tiring, mentally and physically. But I digress …
I find that there are only two things that I can control that will bring me into God’s presence, reading God’s Word and prayer. I put them in that order because I can pray first but normally my prayers are much more what I call “real”, when I’ve been reading God’s Word first. Of course, there is a third option, which is “grace” but God controls that and it’s not something that I can initiate.
I finished going through Acts again and I’m back into Romans, which has always been one of my favourites. I find it’s almost like we get to pick the Apostle Paul’s brain, so to speak, as I go over and over Romans again and again. It seems, no matter how many times I’ve gone through Romans that I always find something new, always. I guess I love Paul’s letter to the Christians in Rome because it’s where Paul just lays it all out on the table, spells out the human experience with coming to know God, step by step. And, most importantly, where we really come to terms with our own situation, how we need to be reborn, enter into the spiritual realm and be united with Jesus, here and now and for all eternity.
I must have spent at least three or four hours yesterday just going over Romans 6, 7 and 8 again and again. I really have a unique opportunity at my disposal where I work. I work in 15 minute increments, I’m on for 15 minutes and then off for 15 minutes. When I’m off, I’m studying God’s Word and when I’m on, working outside, especially if there is no traffic to process, I actually have time to think or meditate on what I’ve just been reading. I also find that spontaneous prayer happens a lot, where I’m asking God to open my mind and heart to His Word. And there are those moments, when He breaks through my dismal mental abilities and I sense His nearness and the wonder that He is.
Call me crazy but as I mentioned, because I just finished reading The Creator and the Cosmos, which at one part, deals with the 4 dimensional world we live in (width, length, height and time) and the multi dimensional reality that God has control over, and can move in and out of, as I was standing outside yesterday, I actually said, “Jesus, you could literally be near me right now”. And then the Holy Spirit brought to my remembrance the scripture that says in Matthew 18:20 NIV “For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.” Jesus NEVER says anything that isn’t true. So when two or three or more gather together in His name, He says He is there. That’s powerful and amazing. So we need to be mindful of that, when we’re at Church, at a Bible study or praying together. Jesus knows everything about us, what we’re thinking, what we’re doing, He knows it all and He is near. He is always near.
And while I’m on my “call me crazy” roll, how many of you have a picture in your mind that you can almost see, of Jesus, in Heaven, with all of us, in His Glory? I’ve looked for pictures but I can’t find any that does it justice to what I “see”. Every knee shall bow. Multitudes without number. Worthy is the Lamb. It boggles the mind. And I’d bet you dollars to donuts that the picture that I “see” is the picture that you “see”. That’s God’s Holy Spirit glorifying Jesus.
Every once in a while Jesus breaks through to this simple mind of mine and let’s me know that He is more real that all of our so called reality and there’s nothing else that I can say but “I love you Jesus”. And the glory of it all is that His love extends so much further than to me, it extends to you and you and you, to all of us who trust and have faith in Him, today, now, this very minute.
Worthy is the Lamb! Blessings!