God blesses me an awful lot. Sometimes just little things that He does that draws my heart closer to Him. And He asks so little in return. Just to acknowledge that I need Him, that I trust Him, and that only His love calms my heart. We had all of our family over for Thanksgiving today instead of tomorrow, here in Canada. There were eighteen of us gathered together today. I watched them hug one another, I got a hug from my grand daughter who is almost three and she is one good hugger. My sons all hugged me and my daughters did too. My wife and I pulled another big dinner off again and things went pretty smoothly. I watched my wife interact with all of them and the love that I have for her sometimes scares me. We’ve been through so much together and I love her so much. It could have been so different than the way it is now, so many times when I came so close to losing it all. I have so much to be thankful for.
We dropped one of our daughters off at her home this evening, along with her newborn baby, after everyone had eaten and spent time with one another. It’s been a hard hard walk with this daughter, we’re talking years of much difficulty and anguish. But now we’re seeing little changes that we haven’t seen for many years, love breaking down walls, slowly, where there has been no gain for far far too long. I had come to the point where there was no hope unless God intervened. We still have a huge way to go but I have hope again and God’s leading on when to speak and when to let it go is there when I need it and knowing how to keep connected and dependent on our Heavenly Father, has taken root in a new way.
Do you ever feel like you’re in this alone? Like it’s a battle and you know you’ve lost. I’ve been there. The thing is we’re not alone, even when we think we’re alone. God is close, very close and in spite of what we cannot see, in spite of what we cannot understand, and in spite of our own misguided stumbles, He stays with us, each step of the way. Sometimes He withholds an immediate answer to a pressing problem because the deeper lesson we need to learn is that our root problem is not this mountain before us but the fact that we haven’t come to the place where we truly acknowledge our own limitations and trust in Him. And the scary part is the mountain of a problem before us is just part of the problem, in fact there are probably a number of mountains, some of which we don’t even see, yet.
I sat in my car this evening looking out at the dark night, while my wife aided my daughter into her apartment with the baby and the street was empty. Just me sitting there, waiting, alone in the night. If you’re wondering why I wasn’t helping, someone needs to stay in the car to ensure it doesn’t get hit, you need to leave the motor running and have the lights on, it’s normally a busy little spot. Anyway, there I was, alone, sitting in the car, looking out into the dark night. Just me, a relatively old fella of 73. And yet, the God who created this universe, the God who became flesh and walked on this earth, He knows exactly what is happening, He knows my every thought and He’s there with me.
That’s hard to believe isn’t it? But it’s true. Somewhere along the line we come to the realization that this is not a haphazard relationship, this is constant, strong, dependable, and as sure as the sun that rises each morning. That reality needs to take root in us, down to the core of our being. He cares, He loves, He watches over us and His plan for us is to bring us to the place where we are complete in Him. The reality of being complete in Him is always there, we just haven’t always seen it yet. Our spiritual vision has a tendency to be progressive, if we are earnestly seeking God’s will in our lives.
No, all my problems haven’t gone away, but God’s will for my life and those that I love, will be fulfilled according to God’s good will. All I need to do is do what He asks me to do and if I do, He will do His part and I will be satisfied. And what applies to me, also applies to you.
Psalm 65:4 ESV
“Blessed is the one you choose and bring near, to dwell in your courts!
We shall be satisfied with the goodness of your house, the holiness of your temple!”
Worthy is the Lamb! Blessings!