I Don’t Need to Understand


I hate it, that silence, that seeming void. Then couple that with higher than normal stressful demands and my very prevalent awareness of the limitations of this aging body plus increased personal distresses of the heart. Sometimes it just seems to come in waves. Sometimes the tears flow and I just need to let it happen. He understands and He is there for us and that is what is important. He is our hope.

John 11:25-26 NIV  “Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. The one who believes in me will live, even though they die; and whoever lives by believing in me will never die. Do you believe this?” 

Sometimes we forget why Jesus died and rose again from the dead, sometimes we lose sight of the big picture. Our life is in Him. All of it.

Most times I am aware of God’s presence in varying degrees, but sometimes even that goes and that is the part that I truly hate. Thankfully that doesn’t happen very often or for very long, but it happens. Yet even in the silence, that seemingly total void, God is there. He sustains, strengthens and touches my heart, enabling me to do what I didn’t think I can do. And there are the unexpected blessings, that just seem to come together out of nowhere, through no direct input on my part in any way at all.

The bottom line is that I love our Lord and He is my rock. My mind and heart will no longer accept any other reality. I have tasted and seen that the Lord is good. And, as I’ve indicated, I don’t always understand but that too is alright because that really doesn’t matter any more. His Word tells me that He is always with me and I know He hears my prayers. I am super grateful when He answers my prayers or speaks to me from His Word and touches my heart.

I believe in the goodness of God. He is the source of love and that in itself is a beautiful thing. And it is a balanced and patient love, a love that knows the end from the beginning. There is so much hate and evil in this world but there are also so many examples of selfless love being displayed. Imagine a world without any love. Imagine a God who wasn’t good. I trust in Jesus and ultimately, that is what He wants me to do. He is my shepherd and He knows me better than I know myself.

There are hard lessons to go through sometimes, hard lessons to experience, but there is peace and contentment in trusting in Him. And sometimes all we can and need to do is kneel in prayer and put ourselves in His presence and speak to Him from our heart.

Matthew 11:29 NIV  “Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.”

How reassuring those words of Jesus are and this is the expressed essence of our Lord.

Help when you can help, do what you can do and trust in Jesus.

Philippians 4:6-7 NIV  “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

Let us all continuously lift one another up in prayer as we are instructed to do.

Ephesians 6:18 NIV  “And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests.With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.

Worthy is the Lamb! Blessings! 


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