I don’t know if any of you have experienced the speed governors that they sometimes have on go-carts so as to control the maximum speed that go-carts can go, but sometimes I feel as if I have one on my mind. Yes, I know, that probably sounds a bit on the weird side but I’m just telling it like it is. I’ve been reading through the Gospel of Luke as of late and sometimes I run into something that I just don’t comprehend. There is much within God’s Word that I think I do understand and yet at the same time there is still much that I do not understand and it bothers me because I do really want to understand. And yet, I seem to sense and know that the not understanding part is necessary, so that faith, trust and reliance in God, is a reality.
It’s like the not understanding part or the distance between God and myself part is necessary and part of God’s plan. How is it that I can not understand and yet still understand? How is it that God can seem distant and yet close at the same time?
And God’s Word tells us that knowing or understanding in part is part of God’s plan because we are told in 1 Corinthians 13:12 NIV “For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.”
Many years ago I actually had the opportunity to be in Jerusalem for a few days and I am still able to recall the texture of the land and the smell of the air. Jerusalem is really special, it just breaths of God’s presence, in spite of the present commercialism and the loss of it’s grandeur. I try to bring those memories back to my mind as I read what transpired there, how Jesus taught in the Temple, how He entered the city riding on a donkey colt and what it signified. I also recall how in Luke we are told that Jesus wept when He looked over Jerusalem for what could have been and for what would happen to it later on. And I also remember that Jesus really died on a cross and really rose again from the dead there.
Luke 19:41-42 NIV “As he approached Jerusalem and saw the city, he wept over it and said, “If you, even you, had only known on this day what would bring you peace—but now it is hidden from your eyes.”
It strikes me that there are a lot of things that are still hidden from my eyes. Things within myself and also without. I understand the need for utter dependency in Jesus but yet I so often go about doing things without even taking God’s will into consideration. Oh I try, at the start of each day in prayer, but the dividing line between where my will takes charge and God’s will is obeyed too often remains foggy or hardly evident. And I can’t help but think of how things must have been for Adam and Eve, in the Garden of Eden, prior to the fall, when God walked in the garden with them and their reliance on God was total. I long for that innocence and oneness with God again.
And when I pray, trying as hard as I can, to be real as I can, I wonder why there is that constant awareness of falling short in myself, knowing that in me is no good thing, and that my only hope is my faith in Jesus and what he has done for me. Yet that falling short bothers me, where I too often fail to show compassion or fail to speak as I ought, when I ought. The contrast between God’s holiness and myself really bothers me because even though I have experienced His love and He has proved Himself to me so many many times, I still groan in myself to be free of myself.
And the Apostle Paul reinforces this reality when he says in Romans 8:22-24 NIV “We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption to sonship, the redemption of our bodies. For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have?“
So I do understand that not understanding is part of this walk and I do understand that not fully experiencing my completeness in Him, right here, right now, is also part of this walk that we are to walk in. Because it is only when we will stand face to face in the presence of Jesus that we are truly completed in Him. And that is yet to come. And that is why He is our hope.
I’ve never seen God our Father but Jesus told us that whoever has seen Him has seen the Father. (John 14:8-10 NIV) I understand what He means. Jesus personifies the Father, everything that Jesus did, everything that Jesus said. But I’ve never seen Jesus either. Not with my eyes, nor have I touched Him or knelt at His feet. But I want to. Yet Jesus tells us in John 20:29 NIV “Then Jesus told him, “Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.”
So Jesus tells us that we are blessed. I believe Him. I’m pretty sure He knows about this better than I do. God has a reason and purpose for everything, literally. I trust in Him here too.
Do you, like me, ever wonder about the countless millions of believers who have gone before us and are now in His presence? Do you wonder, like me, how we stand in comparison to the faith that some of them have shown, that we know absolutely nothing about? Do you ever, like I do, consider how utterly insignificant we probably are? Yet Jesus tells us that we are definitely of worth, so much so that God our Father sent us His Son to redeem us back unto Himself. Because we are so loved.
In this self centered materialistic slanted world that we live in, how does one possibly fully comprehend this kind of promised reality? Hard to believe? Yes it is, until you actually look at everything around us, until you actually consider God’s testimony to Himself in the Holy Bible. God is real, Jesus is real and the life in Him that He promises us is real.
Worthy is the Lamb! Blessings!