Thick Headed

First off I would like to apologize to anyone who actually spent time reading my post yesterday where I lamented on what I perceived as injustice. I actually knew that the post wasn’t in line with what God’s Holy Spirit would have me do but I just went ahead and did it anyway. How stupid is that?

Strange how I can ask for God’s wisdom and to know more of His ways and thoughts and then just ignore them at will. It really grieves me when I do that.

It struck me yesterday that we all have our own perception on what happens around us and it’s not really off the wall to expect that others who live in a different country may not have the same perspective as we do. And it also struck me that there is really only one perspective that truly matters and that is the way that God looks at everything. And regardless of our country of origin, His perspective is usually different than ours, especially if we are leaning towards a humanistic spin on what is transpiring around us.

Do you remember the time where Jesus was having a nap in the boat and a storm started to make the waves swamp the boat and the disciples became really concerned and woke Him up?

Mark 4:35-41 NIV

“That day when evening came, he said to his disciples, “Let us go over to the other side.”Leaving the crowd behind, they took him along, just as he was, in the boat. There were also other boats with him. A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was nearly swamped. Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke him and said to him, “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?” He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Quiet! Be still!” Then the wind died down and it was completely calm. He said to his disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?” They were terrified and asked each other, “Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!”

Apparently I got concerned about the waves yesterday and I forget to pay attention to Who is in charge of what transpires around me. Not only did I deliberately place that reality aside but I determined that I needed to start bailing because the situation needed correcting. I’ve been through this before. Apparently not only am I thick headed but my comprehension abilities could use some fine tuning.

Key word there is “I”. I confessed and apologized to God this morning. I’m apologizing to you folks now.

I am amazed that Jesus puts up with me.

If walking daily with Jesus is like taking classes in grade school, I’m wondering how many times I have to take this class before it finally sinks in.

Worthy is the Lamb! Blessings.

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  1. Oh no, Bruce, don’t tell me you’re human! Even Paul admits the human dilemma in Romans 7:19-24. God bless, if even Paul struggles with sin, we should not think ourselves above him. But the good news is: recognition of and repentance of our sins is redeeming.

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    • …sorry, as I was saying,

      etc.–you get the point.

      Here’s an idea: Quit it.
      That’s what a therapist said to me when I was so focused on things that caused harm within my family. Remembering this has been a huge blessing.
      Take care.

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      • Recently, I’ve had to stop and ask myself (again) why I place myself so far within the thoughts that cause me such harm. Out of all that life has to offer, why do I bother with the things that destroy? Instead of regrets later, as you have also made evident here, I’m trying to focus on the good in life.
        Hope you find peace.
        Blessings.

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      • I do understand Damon and you have been one of the means by which God has expanded my understanding in this area, so I am grateful to you for this. I call it the onion effect where God peels away different layers from all of us. Some of yours may be different from mine and vice versa but He still basically frees us from ourselves, or that is the way that I see it. It’s not all fun or easy but it is necessary and I do have peace because He’s been working on me for quite a while and the mere fact that He hasn’t given up on me yet, has captured my heart. It’s my mind that He’s working on now, and yours also, I suspect. Blessings brother.

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  2. Hi Bruce. I noticed with the Ryan confrontation that you also issued apology. I don’t think you said anything wrong on either count (even if I don’t agree), at least, nothing that was not Christlike. I think you should stick to your guns. If people get upset, they get upset. As long as you’re convicted, say what you feel is right and go with it. Just my 2 cents.

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    • Hi David, I hear what you’re saying but sometimes the conviction comes from the me in me and not the Holy Spirit in me and there is a big difference between those two convictions. I’m learning, it’s just not easy. I clearly leaned on my own convictions yesterday and that is where I blew it. Short story is that my personal conviction is just not necessary. Or at least that is what I am seeing. It’s that big picture within a bigger picture thing again. God’s picture is much bigger and much more comprehensive. Thanks for touching base, sincerely appreciated. Blessings.

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      • Okay, but just from a professional (journalistic) point of view … Doesn’t this give me cause to lose confidence in your judgment? If you are operating from solely an emotional viewpoint and can’t control yourself, doesn’t this give me leave to wonder when I invest time in you next blog that you’re not just going to turn around and say, “Oops, I didn’t mean it?”

        Just bringing it up for consideration.

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      • Valid question David. Fortunately, from a journalistic blog post perspective, these deviations are relatively rare or I would hope that they would be. And I would assume that you’ve noticed that they have a tendency to be associated with politics, which in itself, is a significant deviation from my norm. With regard to you losing confidence in my judgement, I really can’t answer that one, I think only you can. I think I have published in excess of 1250 posts over the last few years and only four or five at the most have touched on politics. Even with the last three plus years, where I have been sorely tempted on numerous occasions, I have managed to keep these down to just two or three posts, so inferring that I may not be able to control myself, I would think, is unjustified. From my perspective, I’ve hit a couple of speed bumps and the message I feel I am getting is to stay away from them, although I do have to admit, the real issue appears to be that I need to remain on course as led by God’s Holy Spirit, which I think I normally am, and not get detracted with the side issue of politics. This last one did cut a little deeper because it did directly involve Canada but even here God let me know that I was to let it go. I don’t know about you David but I find that often there are layers to issues that God teaches us and i”m thinking that this one is indeed layered. Ultimately you’ll make a judgement based on what you read or see in my posts, just as I do on yours. When it comes to Israel, I cut you some slack with regard to my own comprehension, because I believe that you have a better appreciation and more emotional attachment to Israel than I do. I can tell you that your valid question really cements in my mind the real need to stay on course with the leading of God’s Holy Spirit and just stop the off course deviations, so I do really appreciate you asking me to consider your question. I hope I have answered your question and I trust you do know David how I hold you in high esteem. Thank you and blessings.

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  3. Bruce, I am amazed that God puts up with me as well! I tell people all the time I am glad I am NOT God. If I was I would have shut us down a LONG time ago. Yet everyday His mercies are new. May we seek Christ while there is still time! Love and blessings to you and Peggy!

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      • I don’t know if that’s a good thing or a bad thing Mandy, but I do know what you mean. I surely don’t feel like much of an example, surely not in me but the wonder and love of Jesus and the image He is of our Father, draws me like no other. I sincerely hope that you pick things up faster than I have or do. And yet the crazy part is that I know He understands and loves us anyway because He knows our hearts are turned to Him. It’s like He’s building a car while we’re in it and the only thing we need to really understand is that He has it all in hand. Hope that makes sense. Blessings to you and yours Mandy.

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      • Hey, Bruce! It is a good thing! I love learning from other people’s example to not make the same mistakes. God knows I have made a lot of mistakes and I want the younger generation to learn from my mistakes. Wise people seek wise people and you definitely are a man whose full of wisdom and life application!!!

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  4. Take comfort in the fact that God knew, even before the foundation of the world, that you would write this blog … and the earlier one as well. His grace is so complete that we cannot reduce it or take it away. Praise the Lord!

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  5. No problem, Bruce. Politics – national and international – can be unnerving at times. Glad we’re sojourning ambassadors and emissaries of the King above rather than deeply rooted in the temporal.

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  6. I’m sure you have been hearing lately, as I have, all the rants and conspiracy theories related to the pandemic. The actions, by the US president, that your post addressed were a human reaction to fear. Is it wrong to speak against this kind of injustice? I’ve tried to stay away from voicing my opinions, but I still think them. Anyway, I appreciate both of your posts, and so will continue to keep my thoughts unspoken.

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    • I hear what you’re saying Candice and I think your decision is prudent. Kind of wish I had thought it out more carefully myself but lesson learned. It is what it is and dwelling on the injustice or fear factor doesn’t really accomplish anything other than destroy the peace and faith we have in God. The short story is that Jesus said in the world we would have tribulation but not to fear, that He had overcome the world. I’m thinking that pretty well covers it! Blessings Candice.

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  7. We’re all in the same boat. Bruce. Love and blessings for us all as we look to our Lord and Savior to continually bail us out. We aren’t worth it, but He loves us anyway.

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    • You’re right Fran, it sure makes one more sympathetic when you see someone else doing it. Blessings and thank you for taking the time to reach out to me, it’s always a treat hearing from you.

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  8. This is just me talking Bruce, but I always enjoy seeing peoples true nature come out when you write such posts as your last one. I was not impressed with some of the responses, and then when reading todays post and the comment section, James 2:16 came to mind which ties in with the cliche “thoughts and prayers”. And it’s not to say that I don’t believe in the power of prayer, I do.
    “The heart is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked, who can know it” May Jesus Christ who knows our hearts, reveal to each and every one of us a reflection of our true selves.
    Much Peace and Love to you and yours Brother

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    • Hi Stephen, part of walking with God is learning how our relationship with Him actually works and all I do is basically tell it as it is or how I perceive it is, so that others may learn from my mistakes, if they want to. Learning can be messy and God does an awful lot of cleaning up, especially after me. And, the short story is that we all are learning and being drawn closer to Him, if we truly seek His will and want to learn of His ways. Don’t fret about the comments, it’s all part of our collective learning curves. Considering all of the things that you and I disagree on, it’s kind of encouraging and heartwarming to see some of the insights that you have. Our tone with each other has definitely changed and that is a good thing. I value your friendship and our infrequent dialogue. Have a blessed day Stephen, I’m grateful for you.

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  9. Hi Bruce, I pray you and your family are well. I live in America and if you need, I’ll smuggle you some 3M supplies!
    I love your humility. I’ve been looking at that word alot lately and wondering how does one get to a place of humility. What I’ve learned is that we all struggle at times, with opinions and what nots, but humility is the ability to go back and say, “hey wait I shouldn’t have said this or that, or done this or that.” That’s a part of humility, at least I think..and you have that ability.
    If you feel you misspoke, then you know it. It’s that small voice that speaks to us.
    Although I believe you rock!

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    • Hi Amy, yes, all of our family is fine right now, as I am hoping yours is also. There’s definitely a learning curve involved with hearing and being obedient to the leading of God’s Holy Spirit and the me in me sometimes goes adrift from His leading, especially when emotions get involved. There’s a big picture that we sometimes think we see and then there’s a bigger picture that our big picture fits in, that is God’s leading, where He guides us versus our own emotions. It’s not easy to follow His leading and so easy to follow our own. I figure if we’re going to learn we might as well be honest about it and share so that others can learn too. Real life applications are important. Anyway, enough of me babbling, thank you for your kind and encouraging words. May God’s grace, peace and love watch over you and yours!

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