It’s been a really tough go as of late. There appears to be a variety of reasons, disappointment in myself, sometimes others, the passing of Bill Sweeney really got to me and then there are just the day to day reminders of what really matters in this crazy world that we live in. The discouraging news pertaining to Ravi Zacharias didn’t help any either. And I am so very bone tired of the polar opposites in opinions and the seemingly endless stream of spin from all quarters and I do mean all.
I’m grateful and indebted for some of what I call my old blogging faithfuls, you know, the Christians who bring a smile to your face when you think of their name. I’ve been graced with getting to know, even remotely, quite a few. Fellow believers who have no agenda, that are just trying to walk with Jesus day to day. And of course, we have the fact that this is January and winter, which is not my favourite time of the year. And then, just to make things more interesting, we have Covid19, which some believe is fake and others believe is real. How in the world does that even happen? And please don’t answer that question because I already know both opinions.
I keep reminding myself that this world that we live in is a fallen world, and in reality, that’s not difficult to see. But I also am mindful that this hope that I have, this trust in Jesus, who is my rock, is supposed to help me walk above the waves that surround us. And most times it does, time spent in prayer and God’s word obviously helps, but the emotions that sometimes swell up in me also remind me that my walk with Jesus needs to be deeper. Sometimes it is really hard because we haven’t seen Jesus, we’ve never met Him face to face. My mind is convinced, my heart desires Him above all else, but what I see in myself still causes me to want to be closer than I am, because of my mixed thoughts and emotions about myself and too often others. I could be a lot more patient, understanding and helpful than I sometimes am.
Of course, God’s grace is amazing and His guidance through His Holy Spirit does get through and I see that daily. You have no idea how often He has stopped me from putting my foot in my mouth. But it’s the still waters that I seem to want more of because my mind is tired and my heart is weary. And if I get tired of me, I can only imagine how I can affect others. Actually I don’t have to imagine, I know.
Please remember to lift one another up in prayer, we all are in dire need of God’s grace.
Worthy is the Lamb! Blessings!