Not Even a Pawn

Those of you who have played chess at one time or another know what a pawn is. The pawn is the most numerous piece in the game of chess and, in most circumstances, also the weakest or in other words, its loss, on the influence of the game can and usually is minimal, as compared to the other pieces.

I’ve been thinking about opinions as of late, opinions that I have and also the opinions of others that I follow here on WordPress. I enjoy hearing the opinions of others, especially as it pertains to following Jesus. We can and do learn from one another and I for one still have a lot to learn. I’ve been earnestly working on this blog now for about five years. When I say “earnestly” I mean, putting in a substantial amount of time and effort into it. The rewards of doing so have been many, especially the friendships that have developed over this time but there also is the aspect of learning from mistakes that I have made and also gaining a better understanding, about myself and also others.

To say that I am less that a pawn is not an understatement, it is a reality. A single blade of grass among vast multitudes would be much more appropriate. And yet, even with this recognition, there is a sense of gratitude within me for what God in His grace has allowed me to be exposed to. People that I had come to care for have now gone to be with the Lord and although our time together was limited by distances, their lives touched me deeply and I look forward to meeting them when I also go home.

What amazes me is the individuality that I see in others because not one of us is exactly the same. I know, this shouldn’t come as a surprise but it still amazes me. Each of us has our own story, our own mannerisms and areas of vulnerabilities. What also surprises me is the warmness that can come though this distant communication and sharing. And I can see abilities in others that I wish I had. 

What I also find encouraging and gratifying is the feeling of family that exists between some of you and myself. This last year or so, what with the Corona virus and all, has been difficult at times, because of the necessary isolation imposed. If anything, this isolation has made me appreciate my own immediate family even more and also those of you who I call my extended family. Because of my wife’s and my age and our increasing limited physical ability to get out and about, the importance of fellowship, even if remote, has taken on a new appreciation and worth.

But the most beautiful of all the benefits is our oneness in the Lord. And yes, I know some of our “opinions” may differ from one another at times, but there is still a beautiful willingness to accept and a graciousness to accommodate among many of you and I am so grateful for that. And I can think of so many instances when some of you have stopped me in my tracks with your insights and caring. 

I want you to know that it matters and the oneness that we share in Jesus. I also think that the openness that we sometimes display, where we share our own shortfalls to others, is good and it is healing. There is not one of us who is perfect, not even close, but God knew that coming in, when He sent us His Son. And my walk with Jesus is better because of many of you. You encourage me with your insights that I lack. You see what I often don’t see and you lift me when I fall. 

I am deliberately not mentioning any names because I don’t want to miss any of you by oversight. But you know who you are and I thank you for caring and walking with Jesus, with me. Please keep my wife and I in your prayers, as we keep you in ours. 

May God’s grace, peace and blessings be poured on all of you, to the glory of His name.

Worthy is the Lamb! Blessings!


  1. Your post is a real treasure Bruce, in that you describe the fellowship of the WordPress Brethren/Church accurately. I would be quick to say brother that your writing is highly valued by many for its solidity in the Scriptures; a great example to follow. We on WordPress may have many readers but I have found that there is an inner circle of close fellowship which is priceless. I know I have benefited from devotions I have read but also on a personal level, the prayers of the brethren for me and my family.
    Finally brother, I would pray that our LORD God would continue to sustain you and yours, providing you with strength and insight to keep serving Him each day, Amen.

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  2. I wonder how many of us have the same rumblings of thoughts in the back of our minds. You worded some of my thoughts well Bruce. The crazy part about our significance in God’s eyes is to some extent related to our degree of surrender to (in your words) being less than a pawn. When we realize how nothing we really are it seems that God makes us more and the glory is his. It has been said that for the first 40 years Moses was a somebody. The next 40 years he became a nobody. The last 40 years Moses was a nobody used by God as a somebody.
    I do love the oneness of fellowship you have mentioned…much of it is the real deal. Funny how God uses the internet too


    • The Bible says that God created us for His pleasure and I often times think “why?”, considering how little we understand and how He puts up with us. But He does love us and I am not questioning that, but it does boggle my mind. Years ago when for some unknown reason God brought me into His presence, the Holiness of His presence was staggering and the difference between He and I was immense but His love was completely overwhelming and I have never forgotten that. Can’t explain it but it was unreal. Totally beyond words, never wanted to leave, ever, for any reason. And you’re right about the fellowship, even on the Internet and I am grateful for it. And especially brothers like you. Blessings Gary.


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