John 6:64-68 NASB
“But there are some of you who do not believe.” For Jesus knew from the beginning who they were who did not believe, and who it was who would betray Him. And He was saying, “For this reason I have told you that no one can come to Me unless it has been granted him from the Father.”As a result of this many of His disciples left, and would no longer walk with Him. So Jesus said to the twelve, “You do not want to leave also, do you?” Simon Peter answered Him, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have words of eternal life.”
”Lord, to whom shall we go? You have words of eternal life.”
There are so many things that I do not understand that it isn’t even funny. I know, I’ve read the Christian answers for a lot of the things that I do not understand, but even with those answers, the long and the short of it is, I still do not thoroughly understand, I still do not thoroughly comprehend. Sometimes there is a trace of understanding, but the lack of understanding, overshadows that trace. I can understand but I still don’t understand. I can comprehend but I still don’t comprehend.
Children suffering from disease, Christians suffering from disease, the silence of God at times when we call out to Him. Sometimes our prayers are answered and sometimes they are not. Sometimes there are healings and sometimes there are not. Sometimes the presence of God is overwhelming and other times it‘s like we are talking to an empty room. How is it possible to understand and not understand at the same time, because, so many times, that is exactly how I feel.
I understand God’s sovereignty, but I don’t understand how it sometimes is displayed. I understand that this is not all that there is, but I don’t understand why where we are now, sometimes has to be as brutal as it is. I understand that trusting God, taking Him at His Word is what it is all about, but sometimes His Word is all that there is. I understand about not depending on our feelings but sometimes they seem almost impossible to ignore. I understand that God knows the end from the beginning but I surely don’t.
Trusting God, having faith in His love over our own, having trust in His wisdom, over our own, is what I see and sometimes it is all that I can see.
And yet, like Peter said to Jesus, when all is said and done, in spite of all that I do not understand, everything in me, everything that I can comprehend, tells me that my faith and trust in Jesus is the answer, that He is my only hope. And I can see that and I can comprehend that without question. There is no doubt about that in my mind or heart at all. It’s some of the other stuff, that which I encounter almost daily, in myself and others that I care for, that I do not comprehend, that I long to have answers for.
I know there are answers, I just don’t know them all. I know there are reasons, but once again, I just don’t grasp them all. And I know that God’s love makes the love that I sometimes display, look like almost nothing at all. I know all these things. I indeed do groan to be made completely whole in Him. I indeed earnestly long to know Him as I am known.
I think Peter really understood the question Jesus asked him. I think Jesus really understood the answer Peter gave him. And that understanding displayed between the two of them, right there, that gives me hope.
Worthy is the Lamb! Blessings!
Lord, To Whom Shall We Go?
John 6:64-68 NASB