I’ve been doing a lot of introspect as of late and to be quite frank with you, I’m not all that pleased with what I see. I think there are a number of factors that are combining to produce the situation that I find myself in, Covid19 and its residual and ongoing effects would be a big one, plus my age which is now 76 years old. Then we have the numerous conspiracy theories, the constantly spun power plays within politics, the watering down of Christianity in all of its various flavours and the never ending stream of different Gospels that deviate from that which we once received in God’s Holy Word. If one chooses to speak out on any of these real life concerns, it generally does not go over well, even when you try real hard not to follow fleshly tendencies.
I think the hardest part to deal with is the almost continual opposition that one faces with disagreements, misunderstandings, criticism and the amount of time that is required to just adequately deal with the various complexities we face. Finding unadulterated truth, aside from God’s Holy Word, is becoming increasingly difficult in almost all quarters. Misinformation and disinformation abounds, injustice is visible almost everywhere, and every one and their dog has an opinion to express, myself included.
I think if I am being as honest as I can be, I would say that I am just plain tired, mentally, physically and emotionally. Tired of the unspoken resentments and distancing, from some of those that I deeply care for, tired of my own inadequacies, and especially tired of my lack of sufficient physical energy and mental where with all, to deal with it all collectively. Right now I need to focus on what I am able to do, in particular with the needs of my loving wife, our single parent daughter who has a young child that we frequently help and using what time we do have left to reinforce our love and concern for our other immediate family members.
My faith, trust and reliance in Jesus is firm, He is my only hope. It’s what I see and hear myself doing at times, that causes me to question the continuation of the course I had set with this blog, for a number of my recent years. There are many who do what I do on this blog, but do it a lot better. I’m just an ordinary man, who of necessity, now needs to modify what I have been doing. It’s actually as simple as that. I won’t be raising objections anymore, nor expounding upon my opinions about the numerous rabbit holes that abound. Posts will be very infrequent (I will complete the Musings on the Gospel of John) and comments radically diminished. It is what I need to do.
Time is short, Jesus will indeed be returning soon. I may already be with Him when He returns but right now I need to focus on what I can do and do it better than I have been doing. I sincerely trust that all of you who have come to know me over the years, will understand. And although you may not hear from me as often as you previously have, I shall indeed, continue to hold you all up in my daily prayers.
Love in Christ – Bruce
Worthy is the Lamb! Blessings!