Why Me?

The other day, as I was driving home from work, the reality of who God is and what He has done for us, crossed my mind and I couldn’t help but wonder out loud, “Why Me Lord?”

I know from reading God’s Holy Word, and having lived in this body for many years, that God is vastly different than I am, I know that I don’t deserve any of the grace He has extended towards me, and I acknowledge that sometimes I have great difficulty even comprehending why He puts up with me. And yet He does, because of my faith and trust in Jesus, His Son.

My ability to comprehend is severely limited, my shortfalls are many and yet, because of Jesus, I can boldly approach His throne of grace. And that grace that comes from God defies logic, opening windows of light that I never even knew were there. Precious gifts that I didn’t understand. Glimpses of what is to come. And the greatest of these gifts is love.

The greatest expression of God’s love of course, is when God sent us His Son, who perfectly fulfilled the will of the Father, in the flesh, like you and I. But there was a huge difference between who Jesus was and is, and who I am. That difference still boggles my mind. The words that Jesus gave us from the Father, and the extent to which Jesus was willing to go, to bring us back to His and our Father , often stops me in my tracks. But such is the nature and essence of our God. Can you even imagine if it was otherwise?

God’s word is sure, never changing, always fulfilled, towards His chosen people Israel and we who have been grafted into His vineyard. That which He has spoken, shall come to pass, it will be accomplished and His promises will stand. I will not leave you alone, like orphans. Because I live, you also shall live.

I know my mind can’t comprehend that reality, when I leave this world and body behind and awake in His presence. I’ve often tried to picture it but I can’t imagine the thoughts that will flood my being or the awareness that I will then have. Eye has not seen, nor ear heard or entered into the hearts of men, the things that God has prepared for those that love Him. No, I don’t think these minds of ours can even imagine.

I’ve walked blindly down roads that were dead ends, and yet, God still drew me to Himself, in spite of me, in spite of my profound blindness. And the amazing part of all of this, is that what now is and what is to come, rests solely in God’s promises and His caring for us.

Why Me? Why you? Redeemed through God’s Son, all to the glory of God!

Worthy is the Lamb! Blessings!

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  1. I’m wearing a portable heart monitor device right now, I will be wearing it for a total of 48 hours, to determine what is going on with my heart. It’s just another reminder of how mortal I am, and how mortal we all are.

    I hope to finish writing my memoir before I leave this world. But more than anything, I want God’s will, whatever that may be. He has proven to me time and time again that His will is always good. The mercy, grace, and love of our heavenly Father, fills me with awe and joy.

    When the times comes that will I leave this life and go to heaven… oh! Glory!! I have had a taste of death already, thanks to my heart condition, and it was too glorious for words. But when I am there, in my forever home — I can’t even imagine how glorious it will be.

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    • Yesterday, as I was saying my morning prayers, you and your hubby came to my mind and the trials you’ve both been going through and I lifted you both up to our Lord for His blessing. You’re right Linda Lee, we can trust God’s will for our lives and to be at peace with that is a beautiful gift. I also hope you get to finish your memoir and so much more. I share your expectation, I also have tasted and it helps to put all things into perspective. Thy will be done, to all our unknowns, is in our Fathers’ hands. I remind myself of His over whelming love, when our days here are hard and the joy that awaits us when we see Jesus face to face. Children wanting to go home. May our gracious and loving God bless you and yours in all that you do, to His glory. Love you in the Lord. – Bruce

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      • Thank you so much for your prayers. Last night, I had a very bad episode of heart arrhythmia. I thought my heart wasn’t going to come out of it, but it finally did. Good thing I am wearing this monitor. I’m looking forward to heaven, but I don’t believe my work here is done.

        The heart condition that I was diagnosed with, back in 1994, is very rarely fatal. But I haven’t had any cardiac tests in a long time, so things may have gotten worse. It feels like it has.

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      • Sorry to hear that Linda Lee. DEFINITELY keeping you and yours in my prayers! Not to mention, I have been personally selected among a host of applicants to be a proofreader of your Memoir and a promise is a promise!

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      • Thank you so much, brother Bruce. However… some parts of my story are so weird, you may regret your agreement to be a proofreader. Seriously. The reason I asked you to be a beta reader is not so much for the typical proofreading, English, grammar, spelling, and that sort of thing, although help in those areas is always appreciated. I want your advice regarding spiritual matters. As in.. do you think I should include some of my weirder, shadier experiences, or not? I want my story to glorify the Lord Jesus Christ and to lead other sinners to Him. I do NOT, in any way shape or form, want to glorify sin!!!

        I still have a ways to go before I’m finished with just my first draft. I had no idea it would take me so long to put my story in writing, when I first started on this memoir writing journey.

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      • Well Linda Lee, let’s cross that bridge when we come to it. I do understand and agree with your concern. If all concerned pray about this, I’m certain the Holy Spirit will collectively guide us to glorifying Jesus. In the interim, stay well, take care of that keepers hubby and keep writing when you can! Blessings!

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