Random Thoughts From Bruce the Sheep . . .

Greetings! How are all my fellow brother and sister sheep doing?

I’ve just gone through an interesting and challenging few days and I’m thinking that God in His mercy and grace has been opening my eyes to the residual and on-going weight that some of us carry and how it is so often times displayed in our lives. And the more that I see, the more the reality of God’s grace comes to the forefront, including myself.

That would be G R A C E, as in from God, to all of us. 

I’ve been brought to my knees a couple of times in the last few days with regard to the slow progression of dementia in my wife. And yet, in spite of this, God’s grace meets us on so many levels that I am often astounded. Trusting in God, one day at a time, has taken on a much deeper significance, especially with regard to how we are daily sustained. 

And the thing is, many others carry significant weights, heavier weights than ours, some being from their past plus additional weights even from today. Our trials are all different but we all have them, and it sure opens one’s eyes to what others have to daily deal with. Funny how our compassion grows when we begin to see what others carry, just below the surface. And that daily washing of our own shortfalls, takes the fine tuning of not being overly judgemental towards others, to a whole new level.

I’ve also noticed the example of Jesus Himself, in how He dealt with fulfilling the will of His and our Father, which should really be our own objective, and the difference between Jesus and myself. It keeps getting bigger on so many levels and that dependency I have, of necessity, is there, staring me right in the face. But He is there, forgiving and sustaining. Hard to comprehend sometimes. I am amazed at His patience, forgiveness and His provision.

And if I am being made aware of my own dependencies, how much more will Jesus meet all of our needs, and that weight that Jesus carries, is so much bigger than anything I could ever comprehend. I gladly acknowledge and welcome being called one of His “sheep”, and the vast multitudes of fellow sheep with me, and their own specific needs, totally boggle my mind. 

If anything, it really just gets simpler, because He alone is the source of living water that flows from deep within. I do know that often, when I say my prayers and ask God to bless some of the fellow sheep that I know, I mention God’s grace being applied to the weights that they carry. And the presumption that I might understand, even a sliver of the realities that God sees, easily takes the wind out of my sails. My presumption to know, always falls short, but God knows.

No, I am just a sheep, in more ways that my pride would like to admit, but that is reality and He is our Shepherd and more than capable. I can’t explain it very well but I sense it from within and there is peace in knowing.

I’ve always been one that wants to know, understand why and how and when. Foolish sheep that I am. That mirror that I often look in, is much darker than I suspected, which probably explains why He alone is the light. What God in His grace shows me, about me, is my own need for Him. And that, in hard reality, is a beautiful thing.

Jesus is Lord and I am so grateful He is.

Worthy is the Lamb! Blessings!



  1. Not to get too personal on your blog – but are you getting some help to care for her 24/7. I am concerned as I deal weekly with many folks in various stages of dementia, Alzheimer’s and the like. There are no easy answers, and I will be praying for you Bruce.

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    • Hi Pete, thanks for voicing your concern. The progression is slow and with God’s grace, we are managing well. You’d have to know my wife to understand the grace that God is daily giving. Her spirit is sustained and prayers are answered. There may indeed and probably will come a time, when we will need help and I am sure God will let us know, but for now, He is sustaining us and when we need to reach out, we will. Thank you for your prayers, sincerely appreciated. Blessings brother.

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  2. This fellow sheep 🐑 is in prayer for you, your wife, and your whole family, Bruce. I appreciate your honesty and humility. Such qualities are refreshing to fellow believers in Christ. God’s best to you, brother!

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    • Thank you, Tim. I don’t go there, I focus on today. I’m not blind to tomorrow but I cherish the day today. And Jesus sustains us. It is both humbling and beautiful. Sheer grace. One day at a time. Thank you so much for your prayers, Tim. So greatly appreciated. Please continue to hold us up. Blessings!

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      • I wrote this as I watched my mom struggle with dementia. I’ve published it on my blog so you’re likely seen it before but thought I’d share it with you again.


        Be a dear
        When I am old
        Remind me that I love fog 

        what is hard to see still exists

        When I struggle, dear
        Remind me a blurred world is softer
        And beauty has its own vision

        refracted light still sparkles

        Ever remind me, dear
        Soft is better than hard
        And perhaps clarity is overrated

        silently settled softness

        So be a dear
        And remind me ever so softly
        True Love doesn’t fade

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  3. I am praying for you and your wife, praying for the miracle that I know is within His power. Having worked on an Alzheimer’s ward for over a year, I know what a terrible thief dementia is. Jesus is Lord and He is our Shepherd. I am so grateful, too!


      • God is so gracious and good! I am no one special at all, far from it. But… according to the results of my most recent heart tests… I no longer have hypertrophic cardiomyopathy!! Either the original diagnosis was wrong, or the Lord has healed my heart. I am in awe. And I am praying that the Lord will do a mighty miracle for your precious wife.

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  4. Bless you, my dear friend. The Lord Jesus sustains us all in ways I don’t think we generally even stop to realize. Lately I have been a bit preoccupied with all that scripture has to say about Him and one of my current favorite verses is, “He is the radiance of the glory of God and the exact imprint of his nature, and he upholds the universe by the word of his power” (Hebrews 1:3).

    If He upholds the entire universe, right down to the tiniest subatomic particles, with the word of His power, how much, much more will he continue to uphold you and Peg, who bear His image and for whom He suffered and died. He is so much worthier of our complete trust that we can even begin to credit or to know. May He cover you with His loving hand and enable you to rest and rejoice in His grace each day, as long as it is called today.


    • Hi Craig, I absolutely LOVE Hebrews 1:3! I love Hebrews 1:3-4 NASB where it says And He is the radiance of His glory and the exact representation of His nature, and upholds all things by the word of His power. I agree, Craig, I don’t think we can even begin to grasp. Thank you and may our gracious Lord also richly bless you and yours!

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  5. “I’ve always been one that wants to know, understand why and how and when. Foolish sheep that I am.”

    Sounds like you and I had a similar week. I told myself over and over, God is good. He is good. Just rely on Him. But the ‘whys’, ‘hows’ and ‘whens’ got to me yesterday.

    I am determined once again to depend on God’s grace and favor and leave the rest elsewhere than in my mind. Thanks, Bruce.

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  6. Brother Bruce; I’m so thankful God’s grace doesn’t run out or give up at a certain age. My wife has been battling Leukemia for years now and thanks to a very, very expensive medication that works and the generosity of some organizations, she is still with me; weak and weary much of the time, but still here. So I can relate (and thus be fervent in prayer for you and yours). I DO thank the Lord daily for that ongoing and unfailing GRACE that our loving Lord continues to pour out. I thank you for reminding us how important it is to acknowledge our receipt of it and to praise and glorify from Whom it derives! Thanks for an inspirational and uplifting message Brother. 🙏💗✝📖🕊😇👍

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  7. Why the self damning post??
    I am thoroughly disappointed with you and your followers, what a loss!!!
    The religion has warped your mind and tainted your individuality as a person.
    Sheep? Absolutely. 🤣


    • Well, Damon, you are definitely a persistent individual, I will give you that. Although, as of late, I have had to trash the last three or four of your comments, because of your persistence in demeaning either myself or others. The thought to just block you has crossed my mind but I resist doing that because that would close the door on you, between yourself and me, and God never dealt that way with me, so instead I just keep lifting you up in prayer to God, that He would bless you. You mention a “self damning post”. I don’t suppose that it crosses your mind to honestly examine your own posts. God bless you and yours, Damon. Take care.

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      • I don’t post anymore, just read and comment on yours.
        I’ve never been happier—ask anyone around me, and they will agree that I have changed drastically—without a little human god watching my every move. Realizing that god is not that has been the greatest joy. The fear of dying has changed the whole perspective of life. When you don’t fear that, you are free.
        I only read your blog. It’s hilarious reading such nonsense and actually seeing people live that way. It’s a waste of life.
        Thanks for allowing me a spot here at your precious blog. I do have a heart for people who are suffering from a religious vice such as Christianity.


      • I don’t need to ask anyone, Damon. I can easily see the joy you display, oozing out through your eloquent words. Nor do I fear death, Damon, in fact, I look forward to it. But I digress, once again, you’ve had your say, you have yourself a blessed day, Damon.


      • The whole point of me saying anything to you Bruce is to possibly get you to come off of the show you put on under the guise called religion. How you identify yourself in infinite space.


  8. Life doesn’t get easier as we age does it. We start longing more and deeper for a better home. God’s grace is more than an idea in the clouds as we trust him through the hard and then harder times. I see this happening as neighbors on both sides of us are now in the last stages of life (both have someone in the home with dementia and I care for their homes and cut the grass and so on). You are on my daily prayer list as well Bruce. Ironically, God gives wisdom and depth to us sheep who follow and stay close. The early disciples were recognized as “unlearned” who were bold and spoke in such a way that the persecutors concluded it was because they had been with Jesus. What an honor for a sheep.


  9. This is good, Bruce. Praying for you and Peg. I am reading a book called “a Shepherd Looks at Psalm 23”. I see why he is our Shepherd and we are his sheep so much clearer now. We desperately need a Shepherd.


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