There doesn’t seem to be much water in my bucket right now, to give to others. Just barely keeping my own head above water, as it is. My stream of posts seems to have run relatively dry. I’m not looking for sympathy, just telling it like it is. There are logical reasons why this is so, situations changing, increasing requirements, from multiple areas, and pulling some muscles in my back recently hasn’t helped, with consequential lack of sleep. Withstanding continual discomfort and pain has never been one of my strong suits. Physical healing takes a bit longer at my age and I’m thinking that is another factor, in and of its self. It’s hard to give to others when your own bucket needs filling and the need for giving more, just doesn’t stop. So one does the best that one can, but what one gives doesn’t always present as well as it should. A little less exuberance in my general demeanour is apparently noticeable.
Jesus still guides, forgives and leads, and grants me His grace, but my patience with myself and others has taken a bit of a hit. My own selfcenteredness and my awareness of the shortsightedness of others at times, seems to be more apparent to me right now, and that also isn’t a good thing. Plus my awareness of my “light” affliction, as compared to what many others have to endure. B+’s and A’s seem to be out of my reach right now and a nominal “C” seems to be the best that I can do. No flag waving here, but I’m still showing up. I’ll probably be quiet for a while. God willing, this too shall pass.
(Update) It would appear my last sentence above about “this too shall pass” was closer to the truth than I thought. Apparently I am in the process of passing a kidney stone. Not fun!
Love in Christ – Bruce
Worthy is the Lamb! Blessings!